How I feel right now part 2

Ok so, I try really reallyyy hard to be nice to people. Whenever I want to say something mean to someone I think to myself, "somewhere out there is a mother who loves this annoying piece of crap, so I should be nice because it would hurt her feelings if I was mean." and usually that works. But there are just some people who get under my skin in such a major way that, given the opportunity, I would smash a bucket of rocky road ice cream on them while they take their prom pictures. Seriously.

I think it is not that hard to not be a butthead. Just be nice, don't say every single stupid obnoxious thing that pops into your head, smile occasionally, compliment others. These are the four things you must do if you wish for everyone in the world to not hate you. And you can do them. It's not like I'm asking you to climb Everest with a camel on your back.

There are some things that you just shouldn't do. I could list them all buuuttt I don't feel like it. However, many people know these rules to live by, and they still break them. It's like ehmagoshh youre a rebel, congratulations! Not. Stop trying to create a roadblock on my highway to happiness you a-hole.

The End. Hmph.

How I feel right now

This is how I feel right now....

I feel mad. I am mad at several people. Top of the list is my English teacher. I like her well enough, but holy cow we have this 10-12 page research paper due tomorrow. wtf. tomorrow. the first day back from Spring Break. NEWSFLASH:: we're seniors. the end. do you nottt get this??

I'm also mad at myself. I had all Spring Break to do this, but I didn't because I thought it was due Wednesday. Nope :(

I'm mad at the fact that time will not take a break for like, 16 hours for me. 16 hours! that's all I need! I would use the time very wisely! I would use three or so more to write this paper, 20 more minutes after that to do stuff for intern/mentor, 20 minutes to shower and ready myself for bed, and then the rest of the time to sleep. Then after 16 hours the clock would start again and I would sleep some more and then wake up and go to seminary and then go to school all fresh-faced and pretty and stuff and not tired!

OMG ANOTHER REASON WHY IM MAD::

my make-up bag is missing. Like, wtf??? it's MINE. I have lost more make-up bags than is legal. This is unfair. I leave them somewhere and they run away from me. Well excuse me but I like you, not sure why you don't like me. Stupid make-up bag.

Also, why can't Justin Bieber be in love with me? Like, why not?

I'm also mad at myself for not writing my missionaries for two weeks. I suck :(

I am happy that ke$ha sings that song, "your love is my drug." I think it is very cute and I love it lots.

Like, its 2:14 am, and I just watched the Valentine's Day trailer. Can I gettt any more ironic??

Ok this is not that hard. I can concentrate on this. I knoww I'm gonna hate myself if I don't. Ugh I hate school.

Because your love your love your love is my drug! Your love your love your love....is my drug!

"New Coat"

So I just realized that I get called my name far less than I get called one of the following;

~ New Coat

I have no idea where this even came from. My Aunt Carol started calling me it and I was like ok. But then everyonee in my family started calling me it. I was like, I am not a piece of clothing! Not even a new piece of clothing.

~ E Coli Emishi (E coal-E Em-E-shi)

This one I came up with. One day I was recordiong the Nancy Drew Mystery story hour for my Mom and I realized that it needed some spicing up. I decided that an opera singer would do the trick. So for some odd reason the first name that came to my mind was E Coli Emishi. Don't ask me why. And no, there is no connection between this and the fact that when I was little I had e. coli. They are not even pronounced the same.

~ Nico (knee-koh)

I think this was my first nickname. It was the beginning of Super Nico and Nico Wondergirl. Only my parents call me this.

~ Nink (neink....I dont even know how to describe this one. It's like "mink" but with an n.)

My absolute favorite one. I love this nickname. It really frustrates me that I can't spell it. My Dad started this one by going, "Nink Nink, nah-Nink Nink." And I'd go, "Dah-dah, da Dah-dah." I used to love it because I thought my parents only used it when they were happy with me, so it was associated with good memories. But I realized recently that they use it when they are ill-disposed towards me, too. Kind of a bummer. Only my parents call me this.

~ Super Nico and Nico Wondergirl

When I was little, my Dad was the Tickle-Monster and the only thing that could save my poor, defenseless civilian sisters was me, Super Nico!

~ P

Mostly the sisters and I say this, and sometimes my Mom joins in. Sometimes people at school say it, too. It means pretty! :)

~ Princess

Carlos started this one last year. I was never really interested in Disney Princesses until last year, when I wrote a persuasive essay about why I should be a Disney Princess. my class loved it and I was told many times that I would make a jolly good Princess. How lovely. Then, at the end of last year, Carlos started calling me "Princess." I guess a lot of people caught on because now many people call me Princess. It is one of my proudest achievements :)

Alright so I really don't mind all this. I love nicknames. But really, if I did not have the idea firmly in my head that my name was Nicole, I would go a little crazy. If I were a baby, I would have no idea what my name was.

Good-bye March!

And good riddance. This has got to be the worst month of the year. March never shuts up. It just keeps going and going and never gives us a break. Thank heavens today is the last day of it. But of course it wouldn't be a day in March without a ginormo list of things to do....

~ Band

Practice for chair placement. And howw many chair placements does this make??? I am not practicing tonight because I left my flute at the school. Get at me.

~ WHAP

Three homeworks I do believe. But today I got my gradesheet and it says I'm missing like, a billion homeworks which is nottt legit. Whatever. I hate WHAP. Like so much.

~ Anatomy

Bring in a composition notebook because pig dissection starts tomorrow! I'm kinda excited :) And did you notice that tomorrow is not March anymore?? Yeah, that's because if we started the pig dissection in March it would SUCK, but because it starts in April I think we'll be good.

~ English

Stupid essay. English is so gay.

~ Intern Mentor

I deserve to be shot for taking this class. Display board plan, abstract, final paper with mentor comments and hours sheets for February and March. HA.

~ Misc

Of course no day would be complete without the Music Department breathing down my neck. I still need to turn in senior pics and paper for slideshow. Yes I know it's late. One word: Senior.

So that's the end of this post and the beginning of a late night. Yee-haw.

In My Head

Ok so this post is dedicated to my personal feel-good things :)

Songs

In My Head Jason Derulo

Miracles Happen Myra

Beautiful Akon

Miss Independent Ne-yo

Taylor Swift. 'nuff said.

The One Backstreet Boys

So Magical Martina McBride

Smells

Love Spell Victoria's Secret

Freshly-cut grass

Blue Knob (yes it does have a smell)

Snow (that has a smell, too)

New school supplies

Activities

Reading

Writing

Sighing

Napping

Cleaning room (after the room is clean you feel better)

Practicing flute

Crimping hair

Painting nails

Talking with friends

Shoe shopping (money is necessary)

One Spot at Target :) :) :) :)

Smiling! :D :P :) ;)

Justin Bieber

I love this boy.

My New Future Take Three

So today I went downstairs fully expecting to plop down onto the couch and watch Made of Honor or that new Disney movie about the frog. Princess and the Frog! that's it....I really need to see it. Anyway so I was planning on doing that. So I sat down and turned on the TV and it happened to be on the Fox News Channel. They were talking about the Health Care Reform that may or may not be taking place and all that is dependent on what the vote is come Sunday. Tomorrow.

So I am interested in politics. I think they are fascinating, and as I was watching this broadcast and senators kept coming on and saying that they've changed their minds and now it's a "no" or a "yes" I couldn't help but think what in the world was going on down there? I wonder what kind of dirty deals are being pulled right now. I wonder what's happening in the private meetings President Obama and Nancy Pelosi and Harry Reid are having with on-the-fence Democrats and Republicans.

I read this article and apparently Pelosi and Reid and Obama are pairing borderline Congressmen and Senators with stalwart supporters of the bill, and they are assigned to focus their efforts solely on this one person and their vote. I don't think this is a bad approach, but it kinda shows how desperate these guys are for votes.

Obama gave this speech that was a last-ditch effort for him to convince the House to vote for the bill wherein he said that we all have to make sacrifices for this bill. He's taken some hits and other people have, too. He said that it's up to the House representatives to do what they think is right for their people, even if it would cost them their next election.

Ok so this is a problem. If I went to a restaurant and said to the waiter, "I would like the spaghetti, please and water." And they brought me back some sushi and vodka, I'd be like, "umm....this isn't what I ordered." and then the waiter said, "Well I know but I think you would like this better." I would certainly not go to that restaurant again. Or else I would complain and make sure my waiter was a better one, one who knew how to do his job right, the next time I went.

This is exactly what is happening in those districts where the people are like, "we don't want the Health Care Reform." and the representatives are saying, "we know that you don't want it, and we know that you voted us into office with good faith that we would represent you correctly, but we really think that you don't know what you want. We do. This is going to make me apart of history, and surely you would do the same if you were in my situation. Plus, Nancy Pelosi scares me, and I don't want to piss her off."

What's happening is that these people are being scared out of doing their jobs. It is not your job to go around pleasing your fellow Congressmen. It is not your job to cave to the arguments Obama and Pelosi and your Grandma are throwing at you. It is your job to represent the people. You are merely the mouth in the body of your district. You are neither the brain nor the heart. The people are. So do your job. And if you do it right, which is by doing what your district tells you to do, you needn't worry about the next election.

After Obama's speech the people at Fox News had some guests. One of them was this old lady who was a Democrat and she had run for vice president awhile ago and was in the House of Representatives once upon a century ago (Here after referred to as "OLD" *Old Lady Democrat*). They also had a former Republican Senator from Pennsylvania there (RSP) as well as the news caster (NC *my initials! Maybe one day that'll be me :)*). This is how the conversation went....

NC: So let's talk about this bill one of the biggest things that are keeping borderline Democrats on the border is the deal on abortion. What do you have to say about this, OLD?

OLD: This bill will help people who don't have Health Care get the coverage they need. It will benefit 31 million Americans that don't have Health Insurance right now.

NC: Ok but let's talk about abortion. RSP?

RSP: This bill will help people to get coverage, but what Democrats are skating over is the fact that it will take tax-payers money and fund over 400,000 abortions. This has never been covered in a bill that has such drastic impact as this.

NC: What do you have to say, OLD?

OLD: This whole thing on abortion is being made into the center of attention when really all we should be talking about are the benefits of this wonderful bill. It will help 31 million people!

NC: Abortion is the elephant in the room we can't ignore it.

OLD; Yes we can this is not what it's all about. Think about the benefits rather than the drawbacks.

RSP: We can't just think about the benefits when something as huge as abortion is being pushed to the back room.

OLD: YES WE CAN! 31 MILLION PEOPLE!

NC: Alright we need to take a break here thanks for joining us. Up next....

I was disgusted. Ok this really irks me. Much as I would like to run around saying everything is hunky dory, I can't. Drawbacks are just as important as benefits, and it was crazy how much that OLD was bending over backwards to try to avoid the subject of abortion.

It's like you move into a new house and it has all these cool things like access to the community pool and travel choices and warm towels and stuff and oh bytheway, part of your money that you're paying for this will go to funding the gang down the hall. Or the Taliban. Or the training of the doctors who specialize in killing babies for irresponsible people who don't want to deal with the consequences of their actions. I'd be like, umm....no absolutely not. These benefits are not enough to make me forget my conscience.

So I have to go babysitting in like, two seconds but anyway now to the reason for the title of this post, "My New Future Take Three". After watching all this, I decided that I want to get into politics. Maybe. I still really want to be a Game Warden in Africa, but I think that I could help more people this way. Something for me to consider.